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Living in denial
Till now, I never really get what I exactly want. There’s always something that stands in the way. I’m fortunate with whatever god has planned for me though. I won’t want to say that I’m not greedy. Hah oh yes I’m greedy to everything. But there’s always a reason to it, do you agree?
But tell me, how the fuck people manage to keep you feel good when actually they are just hiding something from you all along? They’re indeed skillful. I was used. I swear the feeling sucks because that was the only thing you hoped for and you then pinned your hopes on somebody because you’ve finalized your decision but things eventually came to a halt, with fears. Fears of falling in love and trusting that somebody again. Isn’t it ironic- you have fears about it and you’re so fucking mad about what he did to you but you still miss that particular person and you sort of yearn for him still?
Now, I’m decidophobia. And it’s obviously not a good thing. :(
